Keep it Real Wednesday
October 12, 2022
One of Rosemary’s favorite things to do on the blessing bike was to look at our shadows. She would wave with vigor at our shadows, and smile with a giggle as she would tell me “Jill, quick…take a picture of our shadows!”
I treasure those pictures of our shadows now.
Yesterday, I took a ride on my bike and stared at my lone shadow.
The previous reflections and shadows of my mom and I were swirling around in my head, but that didn’t change the fact that only ONE shadow remains now.
The vision was powerful, and the message was loud for me.
It is time for me to ride without her.
Grief is precarious and personal. There is no escaping it, but I have learned it is important to recognize when the past starts to seep into the future and rob the present. In fact, I can HEAR my mother in my head telling me just that.
“Jill Mary, it’s time to move on”
Rosemary will always be the matriarch of the Blessing Bike and the reason behind everything we do.
That is a certainty.
So, what’s next?
To be honest, I am not really sure.
The Blessing Bike will continue to build bikes, help others, and share those stories with you. I also plan to keep writing on Wednesdays, but the content will change from a “Rosemary focus” to …well…. I am not certain yet. Like so many things in life, I just need to let it evolve.
Maybe it is a step INWARD for some self-reflection. Maybe it is a step OUTWARD to loop in other resources to help you all as caregivers. Maybe it is a step to the SIDE to allow others like YOU to guest blog and share YOUR stories too.
Maybe it is just a dance of all of those steps combined?
Maybe you have ideas?
All I know is that it’s time.
Feel free to share your thoughts too.
Much love to you all.
More to come.